Regrets collect like old friends..

There comes a time when you must reevaluate your life and decide how to move forward. It may not be a conscious decision, but something of a consequence brought on by external forces. The first natural reaction is always resistance, but more often than not, once the wheel starts turning, it becomes like a series of interlocking cogs. One small step and everything else starts to move along like a well oiled machine.

Here to relieve your darkest moments..

It is quite strange how your mindset can be tuned in one direction, and then suddenly things change and life catapults you in a totally different direction. You start falling into a darkness so black that it scares you to oblivion. The fall seems to go on forever and you wonder when the thud will finally come.

Then the strength that you have gathered over the years decides to check in. And you pick yourself up. Suddenly you are like a balloon, flying into the skies and thriving in the wind of change that only seems to take you higher and higher. In this moment, there is no greater feeling than that of shaking off the weights that pull you down, and soaring without a care in the world

And just when you think that you are safe, it hits you..you cannot let go of the weights. They are etched into your mind, your soul, your very DNA. There is so much one can change, but even that has its limits.

And every demon wants its pound of flesh..

Everyone around you seems to be oblivious to the workings of your system. No matter how much you try and help them understand you, its always futile. The struggle to be who you are is the very burden that sits on your soul and makes it pitch black.

They try and change you, they blame you for not being a certain way, a way that will only serve their purposes. They find a way to put you down because it is not in your DNA to see the cup half full. And then when you finally try to look on the bright side, they make it a searing disappointment again and again until you have no choice but to restore factory settings. At least in your default status, you know the way through.

It’s always darkest before the dawn

Carry on sweet soul, live your life uninhabited. Do not feel guilty for doing what sets your soul on fire. Because when that fire finally gets extinguished at the end of your days on earth, you will be glad that you lived for you. If anyone should make it their life’s purpose to get you down, take a stand, hard as it may be, and rise above it.

sub-topics inspired by shake it off by Florence and the machine